"What I love most about rivers is, 

You can't step in the same river twice,

The water's always changing, always flowing.

But people, I guess, can't live like that

To be safe, we loose our chance of ever knowing

What's around the river bend

Waiting just around the river bend..."

Even the weird half spring you get in England!

I love the smells, the sights, the weather (even the rain...I actually love rain!), The food, the chirpy disposition that creeps up over everyone in preparation for Summer, I love the new starts, buds blooming meaning that flowers are on their way! There isn't a season I don't like but this morning I fell in love with Spring! I'm probably least fond of Summer...weird right!

Cherry blossom reminds me of being in primary school (Cherry Orchard J & I) because there was a  row of cherry trees and the best time of year was when they were in full blossom! We'd spend every lunch time playing under them or sometimes just sitting! I wish I had time to sit now!

I'm an observer;....I observe! I think it's why I quite like Social Anthropology! I get to sit and watch or read and then continue to sit and think. In class we study different cultures, lost tribes, "new" civilisations and the things that set them apart from us; cultural differences, different thought processes whatever else the lecturer decides. I love it. 

There is nothing to say that our way is right, it is merely what we are used to. Many in the West see ourselves as the civilised, and feel like they must take it upon them selves to "teach" other cultures how to be civil and therefor more human(I watched a film where someone described an amazonian tribe as half human just because they didn't wear suits and carry briefcases). There have been very significant progresses in technology that we have the benefit of but with the benefits came the losses. Email makes it easier to communicate with people, text messages mean you can get in touch with someone when they are in a different country if it so takes your fancy but whatever happened to the phone-call, the letter... may I even suggest the face to face conversation! shock horror! Yes we as humans are capable of communicating face to face! (now there's a thought). 

Anyhow mini rant over.

I've found myself observing society, paying more attention to things that happen everyday in the situations that I find myself in. The way people interact with each other, the way in which people don't interact with each other, says the same amount maybe more. I've always enjoyed people watching, I think everyone does but it wasn't until recently I started analysing and I can't stop. In al fairnessI don't think i can call what I do analysing in the strictest....or loosest of terms in that case, but my eyes have been opened.

From the insecure, the over confident, the shy, the overbearing, the blunt, the quick witted, the intelligent, the silent, the academic, the not so academic, people that crave attention, people that crave affection, the crowd pleaser, the unstable, the charmer, the know all, the pessimist, the optimist, the "realist", to the down right schizophrenic.

I've never noticed how many people were just playing games, holding up a mask and entering into act two scene three of the big production that is their life. I'm bored of am-mature dramatics and child's play. While noticing people who are hiding behind a translucent facade (because most people can see straight through it) I've noticed that there are many people....in some settings the majority who are themselves no matter what the situation, the don't hide it, they don't seek your acceptance and It is these people who I am so glad to be able to count as my friends. The rest I shall continue to observe....I wander what people observing me think?! I don't think I want to know! I don't really care!

A case of the fake people

from Sabino

The past few weekends have come with many a realisation for me. I've learnt a bit, I've realised a lot, and I've come to accept a fair few things that I guess I always knew. This weekend really topped it off, I had my patriarchal blessing which was more than I could ever have imagined! Dumb-struck doesn't even come close to how I was feeling afterwards. I'd been scared about what might be said in it for the past three years; now I have it, I realise it's full of things I'd already known, knew were important and had been striving to do. It contained some things other people had said to me and I'd been unwilling to accept, but they were right all along; now I look back it seems quite apparent! The same evening I attended a CES broadcast which felt like I was sat in a room with Elder Rasband on my own...needless to say this weekend has been rather intense but I wouldn't change it for the world!

 I have a work to do, I always thought I did, now I know I do.

A week of posting everyday followed by an intense silence here...and why....essay deadlines looming yet again!

Sometimes I get stressed with work and what not and everything get's out of perspective causing me to beat myself up about how I have no life ....mainly because I just focus on the task in hand and my 12 hour library shifts...ooh yeah! 12 hours in the library reading and writing about the residual evidence of colonisation evident in the birth practices in former Zaire now known as DRC...only to come home and continue writing my essay...(fun... no?)

So to relax I went on to the old faithful that is YouTube and watched some videos...one of which was this...




I DID THAT!!!!.. 


The start of the video that I was on was corrupted so i couldn't buy the video of my swing but I did get the t-shirt! Lisa videoed the first three seconds or so of my jump which I find hilarious....I'll upload it soon, but for now I will watch Heleen do her's knowing that I've jumped off that same bridge!...crazy huh?!

I have taken knitting back up as I think it's about time that I stopped starting something and never finishing it! I also am going to buy myself a crochet needle and teach myself how to crochet. 1) Because I have fallen in love with doilies...yes I am a grandma 2) because my nan can crochet and I've always been a little jealous and 3) because I like to think that one day I'll be able to knit this...yes knit...

So I was thinking about how big the world is and how there's lots of it that I want to see...then I thought about how big it was again.....


Afghanistan, Albania, Algeria, Andorra, Angola, Antigua, Argentina, Armenia, Australia, Austria, Azerbaijan, Bahamas, Bahrain, Bangladesh, Barbados, Belarus, Belgium, Belize, Benin, Bhutan, Bolivia, Bosnia, Botswana, Brazil, Brunei, Bulgaria, Burkina Faso, Burundi, Cambodia, Cameroon, Canada, Cape Verde, Central African Republic, Chad, Chile, China, Colombia, Comoros, Congo, Costa Rica, Ivory Coast, Croatia, Cuba, Cyprus, Czech Republic, Denmark, Djibouti, Dominica, Dominican Republic, Ecuador, Egypt, El Salvador, Equatorial Guinea, Eritrea, Estonia, Ethiopia, Fiji, Finland, France, Gabon, Gambia, Georgia, Germany, Ghana, Greece, Grenada, Guatemala, Guinea, Guinea-Bissau, Guyana, Haiti, Honduras, Hungary, Iceland, India, Indonesia, Iran, Iraq, Ireland, Israel, Italy, Jamaica, Japan, Jordan, Kazakhstan, Kenya, Kiribati, North Korea, South Korea, Kuwait, Kyrgyzstan, Laos, Latvia, Lebanon, Lesotho, Liberia, Libya, Liechtenstein, Lithuania, Luxembourg, Macedonia, Madagascar, Malawi, Malaysia, Maldives, Mali, Malta, Marshall Islands, Mauritania, Mauritius, Mexico, Micronesia, Moldova, Monaco, Mongolia, Montenegro, Morocco, Mozambique, Myanmar, Namibia, Nauru, Nepal, Netherlands, New Zealand, Nicaragua, Niger, Nigeria, Norway, Oman, Pakistan, Palau, Panama, Papua New Guinea, Paraguay, Peru, Philippines, Poland, Portugal, Qatar, Romania, Russia, Rwanda, Saint Kitts and Nevis, Saint Lucia, Saint Vincent and the Grenadines, Samoa, San Marino, Sao Tome and Principe, Saudi Arabia, Senegal, Serbia, Seychelles, Sierra Leone, Singapore, Slovakia, Slovenia, Solomon Islands, Somalia, South Africa, Spain, Sri Lanka, Sudan, Suriname, Swaziland, Sweden, Switzerland, Syria, Tajikistan, Tanzania, Thailand, East Timor, Togo, Tonga, Trinidad , Tobago, Tunisia, Turkey, Turkmenistan, Tuvalu, Uganda, Ukraine, United Arab Emirates, United Kingdom, United States, Uruguay, Uzbekistan, Vanuatu, Vatican City, Venezuela, Vietnam, Yemen, Zambia, Zimbabwe, Abkhazia, Taiwan, Nagorno-Karabakh, Northern Cyprus, Pridnestrovie, Somaliland, South Ossetia, Ashmore and Cartier Islands, Christmas Island, Cocos Islands, Coral Sea Islands, Heard Island and McDonald Islands, Norfolk Island, New Caledonia, French Polynesia, Mayotte, Saint Barthelemy, Saint Martin, Saint Pierre and Miquelon, Wallis and Futuna, French Southern and Antarctic Lands, Clipperton Island, Bouvet Island, Cook Islands, Niue, Tokelau, Guernsey, Isle of Man, Jersey, Anguilla, Bermuda, Virgin Islands, Cayman Islands, Falkland Islands, Gibraltar, Montserrat, Pitcairn Islands, Saint Helena, South Georgia, Turks and Caicos Islands, Northern Mariana Islands, Puerto Rico, American Samoa, Baker Island, Guam, Howland Island, Jarvis Island, Johnston Atoll, Kingman Reef, Midway Islands, Navassa Island, Palmyra Atoll, U.S. Virgin Islands, Wake Island, Hong Kong, Macau, Faroe Islands, Greenland, French Guiana, Guadeloupe, Martinique, Reunion, Aland, Aruba, Netherlands Antilles, Svalbard, Ascension, Tristan da Cunha, Antarctica, Kosovo, Palestine, Western Sahara, Australian Antarctic Territory, Ross Dependency, Peter I Island, Queen Maud Land, British Antarctic Territory,...

you shared this with me yesterday...now I pass it on



other bands I am listening to now


- slow cub...yes still
- the middle east
- broken bells
- north atlantic oscillations
- bombay bicycle club

Trick Question- Slow Club




...along with the rest of their back catalogue

This might sound bad to those not in the know but I was quite surprised that I had an enjoyable time at my dads this past weekend. I love my dad, don't get me wrong, but we just don't get on because we're so similar. This weekend it was nice tho, he let me be the overly concerned daughter, he showed his slightly softer although still very hardened side and this weekend was  the first time where I have consciously  recognised similarities between the two of us and traits in me that I have gotten from him.

Also this weekend I read Another Side of Paradise by F. Scott Fitzgerald as recommended by one of my favourite book worms and I loved it! As I was nearing the end of the book there were a lot of parts that I thought about sharing with the select few that I know read my ramblings, and then I got to the last page and it was decided! After Amory's privileged upbringing, haughty education at Princeton and all of his life experience...

'"It's a poor substitute at best," he said sadly. 

And he could not tell why the struggle was worth while, why he had determind to use the utmost himself and his heritage from the personalities he had passed....

He stretched out his arms to the crystaline, radiant sky.

"I know myself," he cried, "but that is all."'